Loving Myself.

I was admitted to a hospital during the first months of the year. It was an unusual experience for me. I was at a nice psychiatric hospital where I received private care. I was cheated on and left by the father of my child. The experience was crippling, there were moments when I did not feel whole and I desperately wanted a man’s love and affection. A part of me still does but I have created boundaries for myself that have helped me to build my self-esteem, something that I struggled with for a good part of my life. I have been suicidal and felt impossible to love.

The past few months have been difficult but most definitely better than most of my life. I have struggled with mental illness for many years without actually being aware that I was struggling with mental illness. I am now taking anti-depressants and go to therapy at least once a month. This was the worst thing that happened to me this year but ironically, this has been one of the best years of my life. Despite my emotional and mental struggles, I was able to get a promotion and I have been able to live with my daughter. I have moved to a better apartment and have even bought a car. All these things had only been present in my wildest dreams. I dare say that I am content and ready to face life with caution and hope.

Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you for The Secret.