Sophia Michaels
This article discusses sensitive topics such as suicide, substance abuse, and sexual trauma.
In a candid discussion with People in January 2025, Allison Holker opened up about the challenges her husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss, faced. After his tragic suicide at 40 in 2022, while preparing for his memorial service, Holker discovered hidden boxes of drugs, including mushrooms and pills, which shocked her deeply. She described this moment as alarming but essential for her healing process, realizing that Boss had been concealing his struggles and shame. Interestingly, the autopsy indicated that Boss had no substances in his system at the time of his death.
Allison and tWitch were together for nine years. While she was aware he sought solitude with alcohol and marijuana, she viewed this as his way to recharge. Struggling with her grief, she began penning her memoir, “This Far,” and discovered through his journals deeper issues he had kept private, including experiences of childhood sexual abuse. Holker noted that he was attempting to manage his pain without imposing it on others, which highlighted his deep love for those around him.
The Conflict Between Two Identities
Allison Holker observed that her husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss, seemed to struggle between two identities. To the public, he was the lively performer on shows like “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” or a judge on “So You Think You Can Dance.” Yet, within the confines of their home, he was a more reserved and nurturing version. Holker shared that she cherished his ability to be both a brilliant performer and a caring partner.
However, following his passing, Holker came to understand that these two sides were often in conflict. She emphasized that individuals shouldn’t feel compelled to choose between different aspects of themselves. Tragically, during what became his final moments, tWitch told their eldest daughter, Weslie, “I wish I could be your Superman,” a reflection of his internal struggle.
If you or someone you know is facing difficulties, experiencing crisis, battling addiction, or has been affected by sexual abuse, please reach out to the resources listed below:
- Call or text 988 or visit988lifeline.org
- Check the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website or call their National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357).
- Access the Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network website or their National Helpline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673).
